I don’t know why but I just have this deep sorrow in my gut. Everything is going okay with the things around me. I’m getting my life on track, and I have a wonderful boyfriend who supports me. As well as family members and friends. But I just have this feeling I can’t shake. A feeling of emptiness that overwhelms me a lot of time and I try to make it go away. I don’t know how. And I have a day off so I’m just not really doing anything. I try so hard to just run away from it all and make it disappear but it just creeps back. I don’t want it. I want to be happy and feeling good. I hate the way my mind works and I just want to fix myself but I don’t know how.
It’s been a month since I have posted anything on here. I don’t know what is going on with me. I am in a numb state of mind. Things in life are going well but my head is just way out in left field. I am pretty sure something is wrong with me. I am taking it as it comes. I will be okay soon I hope.
Yeah, actually it was.
Sometimes I don’t appreciate what is in this world and living in it. I don’t know why either, but deep down I always feel sad and I cannot change that no matter how hard I try. I do not know what to do.